
eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.
no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.
one day you think: I want to die.
and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.
and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun
I want a cleaner kitchen
I want a better job
I want to live somewhere else
I want to live
“Forgive yourself for having an innocent heart that made you trust the wrong people. Forgive yourself for having a destructive heart that made you into someone you weren’t proud of. Forgive yourself for having a sensitive heart that caused you to cut off some relationships that it couldn’t handle. Forgive yourself for having a wanting heart that didn’t know when to stop taking and taking and taking until the giving was forgotten. Forgive yourself for all the hearts you had and trust that you have the courage and caringness to make your heart into something pure and beautiful. Forgive yourself and say, “I’m sorry for all the pain it took to change you, my sweet, sweetheart.””— Juansen Dizon, Sweetheart
you are loved. on quiet days that feel meaningless, during long nights when loneliness consumes you, when you’re reminiscing and grieving the past, on good days that feel like warmth and light, always remember that you are loved.
“the need to over explain yourself can be a trauma response in itself. your truth is your truth and no one can ever take that away from you. how you feel isn’t going to be made more valid by trying to get the ones who misunderstand you to see things from your point of view.”
— iambrillyant
very often the traits we assume to be someone’s natural strengths are actually the things they naturally lacked most glaringly or were deprived of the opportunity to develop, but intentionally worked to build later on
especially things like self-restraint, confidence, articulateness, the ability to admit wrong, and other interpersonal strengths and skills